Crossroads...

Let me just explain a little bit about my life here....
1. I never have good luck
2. I never have good luck

So tonight I went out to celebrate a friend's 21st birthday. It was fun and I met some nice people. I also met her friend who happens to be a manager for Supercuts in one of the suburbs around here...

Mind you, I have been looking for work for two months now and every time I would get closer, I just got let down. This last place hit me pretty hard, actually, and that's when I decided it would be best for me to move closer to my father. I have finally come to peace with moving and am actually looking forward to it.

But on the other hand, should I stay and put a year behind the chair and finish getting my license? I just don't know. My heart is so set on moving now. I don't know what to do. On the other hand, I wanted to be able to get myself a job without any help because I have too much pride.

I just thought for sure I'd be able to get a job all on my own and I tried so hard. I'm miserable sitting in my apartment every day with nothing to do. I'm going to Tennessee next weekend to find a place to live. My heart is just so set on moving...

But again, should I stay here and work and get experience? I just don't know what to do. My father has been my rock and my safe place... He has his heart set on me moving close to him, too. I don't want to let him down even though this is MY life.

I applied to TEN salons and nobody wanted me... I just feel deep down in my heart I should move closer to him. I guess I just had to get this out in black and white because the subject came up again tonight. It kind of ruined my night, to be honest. I'm glad I have finally, MAYBE, found a place that wants me but... I just don't think I can do it here anymore.